Carousel Sushi.. Mmm..

Well, back home in comfort again.. I was really homesick on the last day.. Probably due to the long car ride home (8 hours!!!) and it was just so nauseating to sit there and do absolutely nothing.. I felt like I was really wasting so much time.. Regardless, I really did have a good time.. lots of 3rd/4th wheel action going on.. but I won't get into that too much.. But I must say there were lots of uncomfortable situations.. But being the obnoxious person that I am.. I either "ruined" the moments or just plainly ignored it.. which wasn't so hard since everyone was in their own little world anyway.. so.. let me recap of what I did:
Day 1: Sat in the car while David drove all the way down to Woodbury *yay*
Day 2: Went to NYC by train, went to Soho, Chinatown, Rockafeller, Times Square, Central Park.. (very tiring..) through that went to Nike Town.. LV, Burberry.. Toys 'r' us, etc.. (haha, just cuz I wanted to.. even though I wouldn't be able to afford anything :P)
Day 3: Went to Jersey Gardens, went to eat carousel sushi *yum!* uhh.. and waited for David's friend.. but he "fonged us fay gay" lol
Day 4: went to Woodbury again! Did some last minute shopping.. then came back to Toronto hehe
I was really awesome however, just spending some time with bros and sis.. Living with one another was funny, especially at the end when we started getting bitter with each other lol.. More recap later.. especially on David's laziness and clumsiness.. need more rest for now.. :P

Captivating

I'm going to head to NY in a matter of 7 hours now.. kinda excited and nervous at the same time.. Never really went with friends on a road trip so far away from home. Wish I could see them all one last time before I left but I had to work on a stupid Sunday *sigh* oh well.. I'll miss you all :P And hopefully I don't get nauseated by the boys driving.. heh heh.. can't wait till I go to NYC China town to eat those shanghai dumplings.. or whatever they're called.. (sew long bou? Er.. I'm horrible at this but oh well!) That's all I have to say for now!

If you're wondering why the title is called "captivating" it was actually just used to catch your eye.. lol jk! Well.. I'm beginning my new devo bookwhich someone gave to me for my birthday.. Yes, I haven't started it till now because I just finished reading another one today (at work.. hehe!) so hopefully I can get a good start on that book and finish it before summer is done! (If only I had more free time.. grrness! hehe)

Breathing..

I feel that sometimes I am lacking for time.. although I don't feel that I am really doing anything.. I feel that lately I've been doing a lot of crushing but not enough mending..

I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what I am gonna do when I get there

Talk about pessimism.. Or maybe I'm just very confused right at this point in time.. Not exactly sure what and where I should do.. I feel my life is set here infront of me.. But I'm not ready to tackle it on.. not all of it.. not right now.. So currently, just digesting all that has happened.. Chewing through the situations, the events.. not really thinking of what could've happened or what should've happened.. more of why things happened the way they did and what I can learn from it as an individual..

So days away from my NYC trip.. hopefully Willie and I won't feel like 3rd/4th wheel.. Perhaps I should stay oblivious to couples holding one another or just sleep through it or complain.. hehe Speaking of couples.. I realized (okay, it's not my first realization..) that it really is uncomfortable when they got all mushy and lovey dovey infront of public... Especially when they're you're friends! Like.. what do you do when they are infront of you, kissing?? Do you just sit there and watch?? Cuz that'd be kinda rude.. or take them individually one by one and point to them their faults only just to get a reaction where they're highly offended because they think you dislike their "significant other" or that you're jealous that you don't have one... But all in all.. it isn't Godly or healthy for that matter to just focus on each other within a dating relationship.. if anything.. it should just be focusing on God.. together.. Physical affection should only come after commitment to God.. not before.. Because when you don't have your focus on God, things go wrong..

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Well.. SC '05 has come to a close... so many things happened... so many awkward moments.. but all and all.. I've developed some close bonds with people.. created a support system.. and am able to stand up on my own two feet again.. When it comes down to it.. it makes you realize how close ET community is.. and all the flaws we have.. never knew living together could be so chaotic.. Just wishing that I was just *watching* the soap.. and was never really part of it.. but God used me in such a way that I never could've thought before... and now I am here..

So what now..
er.. I am not really sure.. I wish I knew too.. just taking it one step at a time is all that I can do.. need to see if my PB is alright.. really.. it's just too much emotional drama this weekend.. but it caused us to bond so much.. so I really thank God for what has happened.. all the good and bad..

Things to ponder and to digest:
Should I get my guitar back from my uncle and start learning?? Ooo.. the thought of it just hurts! Perhaps I should just stick to singing.. or the drums look quite amusing.. but I know that I won't be able to keep myself on beat.. :P
TLT.. what is happening to it!? What happened to all the people? :P
Should I start a new devo.. or continue to do the one I've been trying to get through??
Accountability partner.. the more I think about it.. the more I realize that having a female one is good too..